.. All of us wanted freedom.. A freedom from everything,,, getting what we want, go where we wanna go and even go home late if possible..
I can say that I don't have the chance to experience all those stuff when I was in my immaturity stage.. I keep asking my mom why can't I go every time my cousins and friends ask me out. I even ask my mom why she won't buy things that I mostly want, she don't even defend me every time I got some quarrel at school. She just keep on telling me, "In the right time my child, you would realize that this is all for you".
As years pass by, I realize I've grown up. I don't have the chance to decipher what my mom really means because still, I'm a teenager. I am still at my confused mode and ask myself if life is just really like this.. But even if I can't get what I want, she always gave me what I need..
One time, she suddenly told me "Pagtarong ug pagskwela day kay kamanghuran baya ka,, ikaw nay magbantay namo ni imo papa niyan.." I was struck and I was like in the back of my mind "nah mo-broad gani ko, pabantayon na noon."
Finally I came to this stage, legally 18. My mom suddenly change her way of discipline on us, we can get along with my cousins, go home late and even ask me what I want.. It was not usual ... I know..
Early this time.. I come to realize.. Whenever we go out, me and my brother don't tend to get longer, every time my mom asks what we want we just answer "it's okay mom we don't really need it", when our destination is to far we decided to stay home.. Maybe this is how it has to be.. It was all just for us.. TO know what is right and avoid ourselves to mislead our future.. My mom was actually unique, she has several features that I can probably share... but the real thing in that realization.. I already have FREEDOM every time my mom tries to discipline me, every time she scolded me to make me learn and even make me discouraged to get what I want to adhere what I really need..
That's my mom and I'm thanking HIM(God) for giving her to me.. :')