.I'm keeping it secret

I love him and its a secret... I once know him when we we're high school.. That awkward feeling every time he looks at you, that eyes that I could merely say looking at me.(haha!) But then I didn't told you because you like her.. It was just me staring at you in a distance, wishing that you could walk slowly in front of me and face me while saying "you're cute" with matching smile.. :) hehhe

I once believe that you do really like me because I caught you several times looking at me, checking my phones if we're together and even ask my friend what I do and what I like.. DAHH!! But then you told me you like her, even though you didn't know what I feel you told me such thing.. You even say you're comfortable with me in your side, we even hugged several times each time we won in an activity..

When I come home, I saw you with those guys(the haggard face ones) I was so confused why you're with him when the fact you don't even want to go out during high school because you don't like partying.. You're not interested going with our classmates and friends that time.. but why are you acting like that??/

Then early this year a friend of us crank jokes at me saying "nagbinuang nato emo bestfriend kay wala niya maingon nimo nga ikaw iya pasabot" then I was like "huh?? bestfriend d i mi?/" then I realize,,,, It was really me.. you send message to meet me up but then I refused, you let our classmate gave me our picture... WOW!! it was like telenovela..

I'm thanking God because I didn't tell him I love him even though I really do, I won't become what I am now if any changes happen back when I was high school.. :)